Ehem. After reading my previous entries, I realized that..

I tend to blog when I'm not feeling good or upset or pissed off or.. alaa all the -ve side lah.

DISCLAIMER : But it is not really me.

I do have good times and it just so happen that when I'm happy I don't feel like blogging. Or maybe sometimes when I'm really-really happy I do feel like blogging but sometimes I feel like it might sounds ridiculous as if I'm showing off or bragging or getting all cocky so I did not.

But not blogging about my happy hours may make me seem like a stressed, annoying, paranoid, depressed person ke ape.

So, after this.. I'll decided to remain neutral where I will blog the good things, and the bad things that happen in my life whenever that I have the time to.

And the point of me blogging is so that at the end of the year I will read back all the stuff I've blogged, and delete it (Like I have done in the previous years since I was in Fourth Form) So basically, it is like the er, online journal.. but it's cooler since I can put pictures and stuff and it is much easier to type than to write it on a piece of paper which is risky also.

I know everybody have the tendency to judge others, which is why I only let certain people je to know about my blog.

If you want to read it, go ahead. And if you want to judge, do so but please be reminded that er, erm. (Lah.. What I was trying to say tadi ni..) your judgment might be wrong (er, actually I had this one clever line to put down tapi macam dah lupa so whatever =P).

Ehm. I'm in a neutral and sensible mode today, I guess.

P/S : Btw, according to the Astrologers, CANCERians have the tendency to be moody. So don't blame me. Blame the stars. (nah. just kidding!)

Read the title. I'm freakingly pissed off with things. And even peoples.

Last few weeks had been really tough for me but surprisingly despite having bloody many workloads piling, it is my relationship with people that frustrated me the most.

When I give people permission to do something that I usually don't let other people do, congratulations - I trust you already. However, please don't go overboard and be noted that, if you breach the trust, it's over. OVER.

When people are trying to be nice, what is wrong with trying to play it along, even if you don't mean it? It is not the matter of being a hypocrite, but it is a compromise between human beings. Don't be stupid la. Yes, we are "not very fond" of each other. Yet, we are no longer in standard one to behave like that. And I don't think I have ever done what they had donet to any people regardless what age I was in. Because I think I appreciate the value of having manners. In fact, to be honest, there are SOOOOO many people that I loathe being around, but I remain neutral outside, because I believe that it is the best way to keep.

Strangers. An article in Reader's Digest (last year;s issue if I'm not mistaken) about how rude Malaysians are. I am not degrading my own country and its citizen which includes myself, but seriously. Some people behave like they didn't go to school and learned moral values at all. We blamed other countries for bringing bad culture whatsoever but from what I've seen, there are certain countries that we have claimed to do so whom the people are much more polite - saying hello, sorry, thank you, excuse me are very ommon words that come out from their mouth. Btw, an example of the rudest person of the day that I met would be the UIA's librarian. Quoting Anuar - "Baru jadik librarian dah behave macam tu. Kalau jadi PM taktau ar" - I couldn't agree more. (And that is why God just let him be a librarian and not a PM, Anuar =p)

I am not an angel. I do lose control sometimes despite having so many people telling me "Oh I tak pernah tengok you marah". Of course la you haven't because I managed to bottle it up inside. But I do have my limits. Don't make me blow, I beg you.

To all these people who annoyed me all these while, the hell with you people. I mean it.

I had been having some kind of challenging, tiring days since last Sunday. I can mention what really happened, but I don't think it's going to make me feel any better. In fact, up to this very moment, I don't think I'm emotionally stable pun. Even a tiny petty little things pun can drive me nuts!!!! And you know when I'm nuts I'll do things that I should not do - oversleep, overeat, and overreacting!

I didn't study much these past few days. Despite the tests that will be held after this chinese new year break and tonnes of bloody lotsa works to be done,  I've been sleeping kind of early (which is good, mama said - except for the fact that she doesn't know that I didn't just sleep early at night; I also sleep early noon and wake up just in time before Maghrib) Shoot!!! I loathe this okk.

Now that I'm having this 4 days. No, 3 days jer cos on Tuesday I have the Bahasa Melayu Perundangan thingy to do.. I hope that I can get back to normal. Please la. God. I pity those who have to cope with me.. And to avoid my down-in-the-dump mood from affecting others, I had been avoiding people.. I didn't go out at all the whole week, to the extent that when my friend came on Wednesday night pun I didn't go out and I made him buy me some take away from BK and we ate in the car instead.. (to-whom-it-may-concern : sorry.. I feel really bad about it.. nanti I'll make it up to you, I promise) All I did was watched movies in my laptop, and read all the magazines and story books that I have at UIA.

Anyway, I have to get back to normal. By tomorrow. I have to. Have to!!! And InsyaAllah.. on Sunday I can register all classes that I want to be in for sem III 06/07 and sem I 07/08 successfully. I pray to Allah swt for this..

As usual. New year. New blog. Expect boring entries, less entries, and less pictures in this year entries. After three past years being so rajin to update my blog, this year won't be so anymore, I guess. Happy new year btw!